Chaos Is My Comfort Zone

What If I’m Just Not Wired That Way?

Do you ever feel like the world wasn’t designed for the way you operate? I do. A lot.

What if I’m just not a planner? What if I don’t want to live my life more than a week—or even a day—at a time? Is that okay? Can I still succeed, thrive, and build a life that works for me, even if it doesn’t look like the Pinterest-perfect, color-coded schedule everyone else seems to have?

A Question of Wiring

There’s a lot of pressure in life to fit into certain molds. Be punctual. Be organized. Plan ahead. But what if I’m the kind of person who thrives in the moment? What if I work better on the fly? What if I’m always running a little late—not because I’m lazy or disrespectful, but because my brain genuinely feels more alive when there’s a hint of chaos to it all?

For a long time, I thought something was wrong with me. “Why can’t you just be more organized?” I’d ask myself. “Why can’t you plan better? Why does it feel so unnatural to schedule things weeks or months in advance?”

But here’s the truth I’ve come to: I’m not wired that way. And maybe, just maybe, that’s not a bad thing.

Chaos Is My Comfort Zone

Some people find peace in structure; I find comfort in chaos. I don’t mean the kind of chaos where life is falling apart, but the kind that feels alive and unpredictable. It’s in those moments that I feel creative, inspired, and fully myself.

I’ve learned that I often create chaos—not to make life harder, but because it’s where I thrive. When things are too neat, too rigid, too perfectly planned, I feel suffocated. I lose the spark that makes me, well, me.

Can the World Work for Me?

Here’s the big question: Can I design a life that honors the way I’m wired, rather than trying to change who I am to fit into a world of planners, organizers, and early birds?

Could I create a business that runs on pop-up events and last-minute bookings? Could I embrace the idea of only committing to things a week in advance and just let the rest go?

I think the answer is yes. It might not be conventional, but who says success has to look a certain way?

Letting Go of the Need for Approval

The hardest part of this journey isn’t figuring out logistics or how to make my lifestyle work—it’s letting go of the need for others to approve of it. Not everyone will understand why I show up 10 minutes late or why I don’t have my calendar planned out six months in advance. And that’s okay.

What I’m learning is that it’s not about expecting the world to accept me as I am; it’s about accepting myself. Once I do that, the rest doesn’t matter as much.

The Beauty of Being Me

So, what if I’m just not wired that way?
What if I’m a little late, a little messy, and a little chaotic?

Maybe that’s not a flaw to fix but a part of who I am to embrace. Maybe my superpower isn’t in fitting into the world’s mold but in breaking it altogether.

And maybe, just maybe, the world doesn’t need another perfectly planned-out person. Maybe it needs someone who thrives in the unpredictability of the moment—someone who shows that there’s more than one way to live, love, and create a life that works.

If you’ve ever felt like you don’t fit, maybe it’s not you who needs to change. Maybe it’s time to build a life that fits you instead.

And for me? I’m learning to let go of the guilt and lean into who I am. Late, chaotic, and unapologetically me.

What about you?